• My gorgeous men are away this weekend, celebrating Easter with extended family. I love Easter. I have actually been planning my son’s outfit for months. I’m not with them, though, because my health pretty much demanded that I stay home. There are two things happening that require me choosing self care over everything else, right… [Continue Reading]

    Choosing Self Care (even on Easter)
  • I haven’t felt anxiety about my weight since I was a teenager. Ten years ago. Suddenly, I’m facing serious anxiety over weight loss. I knew that had lost some weight, but I feel good and didn’t look *too* different. When I visited my doctor’s office to find out why my ear hurt (of course, by… [Continue Reading]

    Anxiety Over Weight Loss: Passive Self Harm
  • March 19, 2014, marked my fifth wedding anniversary. I feel weak in the knees just thinking about that day, and I’m always shocked when I think about how much closer we are, now, than we were, then. I think there’s no way we can love each other more, and then we just do. I actually… [Continue Reading]

    Celebrating 5 Years, Late
  • I feel awesome. Because dropping my Effexor dose was the right thing to do and made my crazy symptoms go away. And because I was right to insist that my psychiatrist drop my dose of Effexor. Reminder: I write my experience; I don’t give medical advice. Just in case anyone mistakes this for me endorsing… [Continue Reading]

    Being Right Feels Awesome
  • My introduction to psychiatry was blessed by a doctor who spent half his working life doing neurology research. Why was this a blessing? Because people who do research in neurology know one thing very clearly: it’s damn near impossible to find out what’s happening inside the human brain. He knew better than anyone that his… [Continue Reading]

    Why Must Psychiatry Fight Holistic Healing?
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Choosing Self Care (even on Easter)

My gorgeous men are away this weekend, celebrating Easter with extended family. I love Easter. I have actually been planning my son’s outfit for months. I’m not with them, though, because my health pretty much demanded that I stay home. There are two things happening that require me choosing self care over everything else, right […]

How I feel when it's time to eat. (In case you thought I had lost my sense of humor)

Anxiety Over Weight Loss: Passive Self Harm

I haven’t felt anxiety about my weight since I was a teenager. Ten years ago. Suddenly, I’m facing serious anxiety over weight loss. I knew that had lost some weight, but I feel good and didn’t look *too* different. When I visited my doctor’s office to find out why my ear hurt (of course, by […]

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Celebrating 5 Years, Late

March 19, 2014, marked my fifth wedding anniversary. I feel weak in the knees just thinking about that day, and I’m always shocked when I think about how much closer we are, now, than we were, then. I think there’s no way we can love each other more, and then we just do. I actually […]

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Being Right Feels Awesome

I feel awesome. Because dropping my Effexor dose was the right thing to do and made my crazy symptoms go away. And because I was right to insist that my psychiatrist drop my dose of Effexor. Reminder: I write my experience; I don’t give medical advice. Just in case anyone mistakes this for me endorsing […]

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Why Must Psychiatry Fight Holistic Healing?

My introduction to psychiatry was blessed by a doctor who spent half his working life doing neurology research. Why was this a blessing? Because people who do research in neurology know one thing very clearly: it’s damn near impossible to find out what’s happening inside the human brain. He knew better than anyone that his […]

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How I Responded When My Toddler Hit Me

My baby is becoming a toddler right before my eyes. He can climb up onto the couch without help or standing on anything! This means that he is HUGE and that we have a big problem, because we put stuff with cords, like laptops, and hot beverages on the sideboard behind our couch specifically to […]

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Healing Anxiety Naturally, Phase One: Food

I’m embarking on a new path, in conjunction with my more traditional talk therapy and psychiatry treatments, that takes a more holistic approach towards anxiety, depression, and trauma. Called Functional Medicine, it’s a unique approach to healing anxiety naturally (also: depression, trauma, chronic pain, hormone imbalance). “Functional medicine practitioners spend time with their patients, listening […]

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The Fear That Follows “Speaking Truth To Power”

Trigger warning: I’m about to discuss abuse and trauma. Sexual and emotional abuse. The trauma that follows.   When I wrote out the story of my sexual abuse at the hands of a stranger and the emotional abuse, over many years, committed by my father,¬†and then clicked a button that says “Publish,” I did what […]