• I haven’t felt anxiety about my weight since I was a teenager. Ten years ago. Suddenly, I’m facing serious anxiety over weight loss. I knew that had lost some weight, but I feel good and didn’t look *too* different. When I visited my doctor’s office to find out why my ear hurt (of course, by… [Continue Reading]

    Anxiety Over Weight Loss: Passive Self Harm
  • March 19, 2014, marked my fifth wedding anniversary. I feel weak in the knees just thinking about that day, and I’m always shocked when I think about how much closer we are, now, than we were, then. I think there’s no way we can love each other more, and then we just do. I actually… [Continue Reading]

    Celebrating 5 Years, Late
  • I feel awesome. Because dropping my Effexor dose was the right thing to do and made my crazy symptoms go away. And because I was right to insist that my psychiatrist drop my dose of Effexor. Reminder: I write my experience; I don’t give medical advice. Just in case anyone mistakes this for me endorsing… [Continue Reading]

    Being Right Feels Awesome
  • My introduction to psychiatry was blessed by a doctor who spent half his working life doing neurology research. Why was this a blessing? Because people who do research in neurology know one thing very clearly: it’s damn near impossible to find out what’s happening inside the human brain. He knew better than anyone that his… [Continue Reading]

    Why Must Psychiatry Fight Holistic Healing?
  • My baby is becoming a toddler right before my eyes. He can climb up onto the couch without help or standing on anything! This means that he is HUGE and that we have a big problem, because we put stuff with cords, like laptops, and hot beverages on the sideboard behind our couch specifically to… [Continue Reading]

    How I Responded When My Toddler Hit Me
How I feel when it's time to eat. (In case you thought I had lost my sense of humor)

Anxiety Over Weight Loss: Passive Self Harm

I haven’t felt anxiety about my weight since I was a teenager. Ten years ago. Suddenly, I’m facing serious anxiety over weight loss. I knew that had lost some weight, but I feel good and didn’t look *too* different. When I visited my doctor’s office to find out why my ear hurt (of course, by […]

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Being Right Feels Awesome

I feel awesome. Because dropping my Effexor dose was the right thing to do and made my crazy symptoms go away. And because I was right to insist that my psychiatrist drop my dose of Effexor. Reminder: I write my experience; I don’t give medical advice. Just in case anyone mistakes this for me endorsing […]

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Why Must Psychiatry Fight Holistic Healing?

My introduction to psychiatry was blessed by a doctor who spent half his working life doing neurology research. Why was this a blessing? Because people who do research in neurology know one thing very clearly: it’s damn near impossible to find out what’s happening inside the human brain. He knew better than anyone that his […]

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How I Responded When My Toddler Hit Me

My baby is becoming a toddler right before my eyes. He can climb up onto the couch without help or standing on anything! This means that he is HUGE and that we have a big problem, because we put stuff with cords, like laptops, and hot beverages on the sideboard behind our couch specifically to […]

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Healing Anxiety Naturally, Phase One: Food

I’m embarking on a new path, in conjunction with my more traditional talk therapy and psychiatry treatments, that takes a more holistic approach towards anxiety, depression, and trauma. Called Functional Medicine, it’s a unique approach to healing anxiety naturally (also: depression, trauma, chronic pain, hormone imbalance). “Functional medicine practitioners spend time with their patients, listening […]

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The Fear That Follows “Speaking Truth To Power”

Trigger warning: I’m about to discuss abuse and trauma. Sexual and emotional abuse. The trauma that follows.   When I wrote out the story of my sexual abuse at the hands of a stranger and the emotional abuse, over many years, committed by my father,¬†and then clicked a button that says “Publish,” I did what […]

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Why I Believe Dylan Farrow, Part II: I Wasn’t Lying, Even When I Was

I will repeat my earlier ::TRIGGER WARNING:: from my post Why I Believe Dylan Farrow, Part I before I discuss child sexual abuse, divorce/separation, emotional abuse, including child emotional abuse, all in relation to recent news regarding Woody Allen and his former adopted daughter, Dylan Farrow, as well as my own childhood and parents’ divorce. […]

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Why I Believe Dylan Farrow, Part I

HUGE TRIGGER WARNING: this post discuses childhood sex abuse in explicit terms. I will not shy away from detail, because rape culture feeds on silence. Sex abuse happens more often the less often we speak about it. Get prepared to be uncomfortable, or click away.   I was sexually abused as a child, and Woody […]